If everything had gone right I would have a one year old today.
I try not to think about the hypothetical, because if i had that one year old baby I wouldn't have the beautiful 3 month old who woke up all smiles this morning. And today might not have been Oliver's birthday anyway. But I woke up this morning with thoughts of what if. what if I had carried him to term. What would my life be like? Would we be thinking about a second baby? Would we be going crazy from exhaustion as our mobile baby zoomed everywhere? Would he be a good sleeper like his brother?
The only thing I know for sure is that if Oliver had lived he would have been showered with love, just like Elliot is.
Happy would-be one year birthday Oliver.